the last day

I'm so incredibly sad. I really dread my kids growing up. I really, really hate it. I'm not just saying that. It's not some flippant comment. I really, really hate it. I don't think I'm going to have them long enough to love them as much as I want to. I don't think they'll be small enough for me to manhandle with love long enough. I don't think they'll be in our home enough time for me to teach them everything that I want to.

So I'm really, really sad today, the last day that my baby is in Kindergarten. It's a really, truly sad day for me and she's just so incredibly happy for herself. I really didn't think that this would be the part of parenting that would be the hardest for me. I just didn't think it would be so hard to see them grow up, and for them to be so happy growing up.

The first day of Kindergarten for Sunshine. The first day that my heart broke this year.


The last day of Kindergarten for Sunshine and the most recent time she broke my heart this year. She just walks away so easily.



They should stay smaller longer. Did I vote on this "grow up in the blink of an eye" plan?

I don't remember that.